Needless to say I was out of work for two months since the accident. I took a leave. Was on disability. Not because I was physically disabled but emotionally damaged. Not working was much needed for a while. But then after some time. I wanted needed to go back to working. Having a free open schedule seems nice. But it drove me freakin bonkers. Like pull my hair out bonkers. I truly felt like an unproductive person in society. I. Have. To. Work. Well I went back. Not because I am any less emotionally unstable. In fact in some ways I am probably more unstable. But you know what? I'm soooo freakin happy I did. Being useful to something has really helped me. Being able to feel like I am working towards a goal is grrrrrreat! However if I could go back to not having to set my alarm and just waking up when I naturally do and then heading on into work…I so would. Alarms suck.
go together as well as my bills and my bank balance. (They don’t!)
Your glasses get drops all over them…god forbid it’s cold and they start to fog up. #NerdProblems And then as you are trying to get to your car you have to take you finger to wipe the drops off your glasses in a windshield wiper motion. Which doesn’t look funny at all. Yes it does, it looks incredibly funny.
There isn’t much you can do to prevent this in the rain the only thing you can do is get contacts and be ok with touching your eye. Or don’t wear your glasses and be blind. But that might be worse…tripping, falling, making a scene.
ok you’ve been warned. As I mentioned yesterday I just recently switched positions…I went from a Health and Human Services job to a position in the auditors office. Full outside world contact to none. Which isn’t too bad. But what I really learned was how blessed I was to have the women by my side that I did. How close we truely are and how much I’m having withdrawals for not seeing them everyday! But the even better thing is knowing that these are strong bonds that will carry on even though I don’t get to see them everyday.
I know I have been MIA for over a month…it was a crazy month. So many changes right before the new year. So I a, definitely starting 2017 completely different then how I left 2016. That’s good right? Change is good…I keep telling myself. But god damn change is hard. December 2016 started with me deciding to interview for a different position in the county than where I was at. Higher pay and closer to home…and less emotional stress than where I was at. So I wanted it. I ended up getting it. So stoked. But starting a new position with out that work family that got me through each and everyday is….HARD. I feel like a piece of me is missing not having my girls by my side on a daily basis…but I’m doing it…💁🏼
The other huge change for me this December is that is was THE first Christmas that I did not spend with my family. My grandma dad and sister came up Christmas Day…which was awesome…but also not the norm. And let me tell you it was weird!!!!
So I apologize I’ve been missing…but with 2017 starting I’m starting fresh!
So Christmas is right around the corner. I mean like right there as soon as you turn the corner!!! By this time every year as a child I had magazines on top of magazines with circles outlining everything I wanted. And because I was such a fortunate child I got pretty much everything I ever wanted. It also helped that I was THE only child for about 8 years in my whole family. Tehe
However now when I get asked, “what do you want for Christmas?” – “Well….financial stability…new career…to eat whatever I want and not get fat…oh and a nap!” That’s all I want these days. Biggest one is the nap. If I could just a bunch of those all time, life would be grand!
Like now. Right now. They can see what you want to say.
I pretty much get told this on a daily basis by those who have my back and are looking out for me. And as soon as they tell me I immediately think…well I thought I was being nice. Guess my face said otherwise. It just happens, I can’t help it. You say something that irritates me or is just stupid my face will react, and I have no control over it. My eyebrows kind of scrunch, my eyes squint, and my mouth slightly opens. All expressing, “Did you really just do that?” Or “Did that really just come out of your mouth?”
Luckily my coworkers are just like me. We get each other and help each other. Thank you friends. I appreciate it 👍🏼
Up here in the Eastern Sierras, the weather changes daily. Actually hourly. It’s constantly different. And as an working adult who live 40 minutes from where I work getting dressed is really hard every morning. Well let’s face it getting dressed everyday is hard period. I would much rather just stay in bed and in my comfy pajamas! So this weather thing is an added nuisance . I’ll wake up and it’ll be 36 degrees. 36 DEGREES! Um ew! But then by noon it’s in the 70s/80s. So naturally in the morning I’m looking at my winter clothes…gloves, scarves, heavy jackets. But I have to tell my really tired mind, “no Amanda…it’s going to get warm…man up and dress for that.” So the only logical solution I have come up with is……layers. Lots and lots of layers. Layer up in the morning and as it gets hot layer down. So whenever any of you guys come to visit me this time of year pack with layers!!