ok you’ve been warned. As I mentioned yesterday I just recently switched positions…I went from a Health and Human Services job to a position in the auditors office. Full outside world contact to none. Which isn’t too bad. But what I really learned was how blessed I was to have the women by my side that I did. How close we truely are and how much I’m having withdrawals for not seeing them everyday! But the even better thing is knowing that these are strong bonds that will carry on even though I don’t get to see them everyday.
I know I have been MIA for over a month…it was a crazy month. So many changes right before the new year. So I a, definitely starting 2017 completely different then how I left 2016. That’s good right? Change is good…I keep telling myself. But god damn change is hard. December 2016 started with me deciding to interview for a different position in the county than where I was at. Higher pay and closer to home…and less emotional stress than where I was at. So I wanted it. I ended up getting it. So stoked. But starting a new position with out that work family that got me through each and everyday is….HARD. I feel like a piece of me is missing not having my girls by my side on a daily basis…but I’m doing it…💁🏼
The other huge change for me this December is that is was THE first Christmas that I did not spend with my family. My grandma dad and sister came up Christmas Day…which was awesome…but also not the norm. And let me tell you it was weird!!!!
So I apologize I’ve been missing…but with 2017 starting I’m starting fresh!
So Christmas is right around the corner. I mean like right there as soon as you turn the corner!!! By this time every year as a child I had magazines on top of magazines with circles outlining everything I wanted. And because I was such a fortunate child I got pretty much everything I ever wanted. It also helped that I was THE only child for about 8 years in my whole family. Tehe
However now when I get asked, “what do you want for Christmas?” – “Well….financial stability…new career…to eat whatever I want and not get fat…oh and a nap!” That’s all I want these days. Biggest one is the nap. If I could just a bunch of those all time, life would be grand!
Well it has officially started. This cold weather crap. The heater came on today and I am not sure how I feel about it! I like hot. Not freezing my butt off! But the warm coziness of our house is very nice. And this means that all those fun holidays are coming up. Which this will be the first year I get to host family for both Thanksgiving and Christmas! Can you say…..ADULT! Cause that’s what the means. When you start having your family over for those big holidays you are adulting like no other. But it also gives me an excuse to decorate and be all cute for everything! I need to start acquiring Christmas Tree ornaments!
Last year we had snow at our house! SNOW! Yes I was that typical tourist taking pictures of the snow. Typical SoCal girl right here. I’m used to 75 degree weather in winter. Ha ha.
Well this one may be a sappy post…I shall try and keep it as light hearted as possible. However the other day I touched on My Papa. I haven’t explained that relationship to you guys yet and I feel I should. My papa (Grandpa) was seriously the coolest man! And when I was a young child we did everything together! He took me to so many new places and taught me so many things I will never forget. Some of which are extremely inappropriate sayings..that now being an adult I fully comprehend! We shared so many interests…the love for the sand dunes…his dune buggy (that I so luckily have now)…music…tv…food. He used to help me with my math homework…I would work it out and he would use his calculator and double check my work. I would sit on his lap in his chair (which I also have his chair in my living room) and we would share a pear watching some cool show on tv. He passed when I was 12. And let me tell you I felt so much older when it happened and so badly wish he could see me today. But I know he is watching over me. There will be times where I’m having a shitty day…I’ll put my music on shuffle and the first song that comes on is one him and I used to sing along to. I’ll sit there and simply say “Thank you, Papa.” I know he sees me and that makes me smile.
This exact time, 10:23 AM, tomorrow I will have came into this world 26 years ago. Say what!?!?! That’s a long ass time. A lot of life lessons. A lot of experience. A lot of opportunities. A lot of opinions formed. And a lot of loved received. I remember being 15 years old wanting this age to be here. To be established in life and somewhat know what is going to be happening with me. And to be honest it’s here and I am happy with where I am. I have an amazing job doing things I love, in 251 days I’ll be marrying my best friend, I have strong friendships and a wonderful family. I am a very lucky woman. As I don’t fully know what’s going to happen…I know where I am at in life and I absolutely love it. The paths I’ve taken and lessons I’ve learned are what got me here today and I am grateful for that. There isn’t one thing I can honestly say I regret. And I know there are some that can’t say that. Yes I am grateful for all the STUPID decisions I’ve made or trouble I’ve gotten because that is what makes me me. And who doesn’t want to be me??? Ha ha!
thank you to all who has made me me…I love you for that.
Today my little sister turns 13. I am exactly double her age. When I turned 13 she was just born. This is the only time in our lives where she will be exactly half my age. From now on every year the age gap will grow smaller and smaller; in return making me feel older and older.
Because of our age difference when she was born it was more of a aunt/niece mother/daughter relationship than sister/sister. Don’t get me wrong as she got older there are plenty of times where I regress in age just to agrue with her like a child. You know just so she can have the experience of an “annoying older sister”. Dont’ want her to miss out on that at all. Like a mother when I think of my sister this is the image I have:
But instead she is turnig into a bright beautiful young girl. Super smart and fun to be around. (She even reads my blog…forcing me to be more PG than I probably would if she didn’t)