Go back. I don’t care about that extra hour in the morning. I want it to still be daylight when I get home from work. When it is pitch black – in the country we don’t have street lights – when I get home I want to eat and you know get in bed. It’s night time..it’s bed time…my day is done. That mentally would totally work if I got up at 4 am and did the crap I have to do at night. Buttttt that is definitely NOT the case. I still push my alarm with like two to three alarms. Making me run around the house with my head cut off cause I have about 8 minutes until I have to get in my car.
So Christmas is right around the corner. I mean like right there as soon as you turn the corner!!! By this time every year as a child I had magazines on top of magazines with circles outlining everything I wanted. And because I was such a fortunate child I got pretty much everything I ever wanted. It also helped that I was THE only child for about 8 years in my whole family. Tehe
However now when I get asked, “what do you want for Christmas?” – “Well….financial stability…new career…to eat whatever I want and not get fat…oh and a nap!” That’s all I want these days. Biggest one is the nap. If I could just a bunch of those all time, life would be grand!
So it is officially 6 months until my big day. We’ve been planning for 6 months and now only have 6 months to go. Um what?!!? If this next 6 months go as quick as these last 6 it’ll be here in no time. And let me tell you the mixture of nerves stress and happiness is quite extreme. The say there is a thing called “pregnancy brain” but I am going to coin Wedding Brain. My brain is all over the dang place. I can’t make a decision to save my life which only adds more stress. Vicious circle. I mean I’ve had about 3 different for sure bridesmaids dresses and just yesterday I officially choose one. So that’s good. I know it’s going to be an incredible day. Just as much as I want it to be here and experience it I also want the next 6 months to last as long as possible. Only 6 more months that my last name will be McClelland.
So if you are like me you are scrolling through facebook and there is all of the sudden all these people on your news feed that you have NO recollection of their name. And then it dawns on you…”Oh ya they got married!” Now these are more aquaintances than real close friends, you know the ones you were actually at the wedding. But the the people you went to school with or you met that one night at the bar and instantly became best friends; it’s those ones that I am like who the heck is this. And this happens almost on the daily basis. I have to go to their profile and really look at their profile picture to regain my memory. Most of the time I click on their picture and it is a wedding picture and I realize oh ya I remember now. However! I am then trying to rack my brain of their maiden name!!! And just because I can’t think of it immediately it bugs me and it is on my mind for quite some time! So because of this I have decided once I change my name I will be doing the parentheses just so I don’t confuse the poor folk that see me on their news feed.
Like now. Right now. They can see what you want to say.
I pretty much get told this on a daily basis by those who have my back and are looking out for me. And as soon as they tell me I immediately think…well I thought I was being nice. Guess my face said otherwise. It just happens, I can’t help it. You say something that irritates me or is just stupid my face will react, and I have no control over it. My eyebrows kind of scrunch, my eyes squint, and my mouth slightly opens. All expressing, “Did you really just do that?” Or “Did that really just come out of your mouth?”
Luckily my coworkers are just like me. We get each other and help each other. Thank you friends. I appreciate it 👍🏼
Well it has officially started. This cold weather crap. The heater came on today and I am not sure how I feel about it! I like hot. Not freezing my butt off! But the warm coziness of our house is very nice. And this means that all those fun holidays are coming up. Which this will be the first year I get to host family for both Thanksgiving and Christmas! Can you say…..ADULT! Cause that’s what the means. When you start having your family over for those big holidays you are adulting like no other. But it also gives me an excuse to decorate and be all cute for everything! I need to start acquiring Christmas Tree ornaments!
Last year we had snow at our house! SNOW! Yes I was that typical tourist taking pictures of the snow. Typical SoCal girl right here. I’m used to 75 degree weather in winter. Ha ha.
I don’t get embarrassed easily. I’ll embrace that crap. “Yeah that’s me…I’m funny! Ha ha ha!” However there was this one time. I was so mortified. It was my freshman homecoming. My boyfriend at the time and I went. I was wearing this long pretty dress. (I thought that was appropriate until I realized that short dresses were what were in style) So I was already kind of off then. Any who. There was a call for the last dance of the night. Naturally we ran inside to dance. Everyone else was already on the dance floor and we were running up. I was in front of him cause I wanna dance!!! Andddd he accidentally stepped in this longgg…oh and did I mention strapless dress of mine! Which FELL DOWN!!! And no I wasn’t wearing a bra. So the WHOLE dance floor saw my breast! Free show! And did you remember I was a freshman! So as I stated I’ll embrace my embrassment and shine it off. But how do you do that with this??? Well when you go to school the next Monday and people come up to you handing you Mardie Gras beads you thank them and wear them and laugh! Then go home and pray they don’t expect it at the next dances!!!